Bleeding love

It keeps playing in my mind. That's how I'm feeling. I'm now a total wreck. Conscious, aware but completely blinded. What could make me wake up to this world that I am in. Freely I walked into it and now I am trapped. Many are reaching out. But I am longing for just one pair of hands. The same pair of hands which led me to this trap. The hands which embraces and at the same time pushes me away. The hands which lifts me up yet putting me down to the pit.